Welcome to the Pity Party

*WARNING*

Someone is having a pity party today.

We got an email this morning from our agency stating the number of referrals handed out this month. This makes me a little sad as there are still 3 days left in May. I’m not sure if this means that there are no more referrals coming in the immediate future or what.

It was also frustrating to see that the approximate wait times are still 7-10 months. Ahh… I remember the days when we were first DTE and the approximate wait time was 4-6months. I miss those days. :-) We were naively hopeful that we’d get our referral around March ~ thinking we might actually take our first trip in the spring… and thinking for sure we’d travel for Embassy over the summer. Therefore giving us the entire summer to bond as a new family of three. Clearly we were dreamers and way off the mark.

It just seems as though each time we got to the average wait time, it’d go up again. I called a friend the other day because I was feeling down about this and was hoping for a shoulder…. all I got was “God has the perfect plan.” “He has it all figured out.” “Clearly He thinks you need to learn more patience.”

All I wanted (and needed) was someone to tell me that “yes, it does SUCK.” I know all that other stuff (and I DO believe it!), but I don’t need to constantly be hearing it. Please just agree with me that the waiting blows. Because it does. It really, really does.

The hardest part is there’s no end in sight…I mean, there IS… but we don’t know when. And that’s really rough. I know as soon as we see our kiddo’s face we’ll forget the pain of waiting (at least that’s what everyone is telling me). But still. It’s an emotional roller coaster ~ we wake up Mon-Fri thinking “today could be the day we see our son” and we’ve been going to bed defeated, yet hopeful that “maybe tomorrow.” It’s exhausting.

Wait Times ~

As of Nov: wait time for an infant male continues to remain at 4-6 months
As of Dec: wait time for an infant male continues to remain at 4-6 months
As of Jan: wait time for an infant male continues to remain at 4-6 months
As of Feb: wait time for an infant male is 5-8 months
As of March: wait time for an infant male is 5-8 months
As of April: approximate wait time for an infant male is now 7-10 months
As of May: wait time for an infant male is 7-10 months

Infants: Approximately 0-18 months
Toddlers: Approximately 19-47 months

~jody

P.S. i know it seems petty as others have waited much longer than us, and others have gone through a LOT more crap than we've had to (thus far).... but it's our blog, and i really do want to write down everything ~ good, bad and ugly.